oh, life. D:
gosh.
i don't know what to do with my life
why is spring always like this??
at least it's spring where I start feeling like "change is good", i guess, as opposed to winter where I am like "nooo, not changing anything until spring! just do what you have to and the rest of the time hide in bed" lol.
but. it's unnerving, I hate being 27 and still having no life plan. (and no, it's not for lack of soul searching, ok? :P i am the over-thinking "find yourself" type of person, which is what makes it extra irritating for me. I have other issues that rule out a lot of possibilities)
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Another question I can't figure out: since I can't afford to go back to Japan yet but can afford to take a smaller trip (and I tend to think that getting away from my surroundings and forcing myself into a new place is sometimes is good for me), do I take the boring and responsible "i might regret missing it later" route and stay home this summer and save more money, or do i go to LA in May to see SS501? LOL ^^;;;;;;;;; I bought tickets for the Korean Music Festival....
I'm not too worried about the investment on the tickets, I can resell them and they'd be the cheapest part of the trip anyway, but airfare and travel is of course the part I need to decide about reserving or not. I figure I can do the whole trip for around 1000, which isn't using all my travel fund a but... I'd rather stay longer than 2 nights, because I'd rather make a "trip" out of it rather than just going for what amounts to a tiny portion of a very long concert (though I'd enjoy the rest of it too of course, it's just not my #1 motivation for going :P). But staying would mean staying at a hostel (which I would probably have to do anyway if I went alone) but at the same time I am nervous about the idea of staying at a hostel in LA. I'm having a hard time convincing myself to go because I have all these not-great stereotypes in my head about LA and I'm not sure whate else is there that would interest me on a low budget. but... it's SS501! It's certainly not like I'm ever going to see them in Korea! Even if I ever went to Korea there are many reasons why I'd rather see them in Japan or the US as opposed to Korea :P (and I wouldn't schedule a Japan trip around them either, because Japan trip gets planned for Kanjani8 :P) I mean, it's expensive to go to LA but it's still way cheaper than going anywhere overseas.
(P.S. I HAVE 2 TICKETS, DOES ANYONE WANT TO GO WITH ME AND CONVINCE ME TO GO? ;D *points up*)
otherwise, where else do I go this summer, and will I regret not going to this? I CAN'T DECIDE~~ DDD:
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On the other hand I'm thinking of going back to University part time and I don't know how much that will cost... I don't think that should be too much of an issue since I'm only planning to take one course at a time now, and will only be starting in September if I go back, but it is something I need to think about this month! because my school's enrollment date is May 1st. I assume if I only take one course per term I'd probably be able to pay for it myself if my Dad decides I'm too old for him to pay for it. I've been out of school for a full year now, but I have 18 months to re-enroll at the U i was at, I think. But of the two Universities in town, the only courses I *really* want to take are only at the OTHER University, the one that I didn't get accepted into last time and probably still wouldn't accept me... and the schools will allow you to take transfer credits but I'm not sure if you can do it for part time... Part time has a lot of restrictions. So i dunno.
Anyway, I'm worried about it all but since it's Friday night, all I can do is plan to go see the guidance office at school on my next free weekday. I guess I shouldn't worry too much.
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At least I was a good girl tonight and went for a half hour walk when I was feeling "bored" (bored = tired and avoiding doing anything). Good for me! :P I need to do that more. Even though I come home and sit right back in front of the computer but whatever. Exercising once a day will have good effects. I've been going to dance class the past 2 thursdays, now that my other thursday workshops ended and I still have thursdays off... It's good for me and I will keep going but it's amazing how bad my memory is for such things. god. partially it's just n00bish sucking at remembering choreography 10 minutes after you learned it, but i think partially its my ADD-ish-ness. I'm assuming (hoping!) that eventually it'll improve with practice, because choreo memory is something I've always been terrible at and wanted to get better at ^^;;
i don't know what to do with my life
why is spring always like this??
at least it's spring where I start feeling like "change is good", i guess, as opposed to winter where I am like "nooo, not changing anything until spring! just do what you have to and the rest of the time hide in bed" lol.
but. it's unnerving, I hate being 27 and still having no life plan. (and no, it's not for lack of soul searching, ok? :P i am the over-thinking "find yourself" type of person, which is what makes it extra irritating for me. I have other issues that rule out a lot of possibilities)
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Another question I can't figure out: since I can't afford to go back to Japan yet but can afford to take a smaller trip (and I tend to think that getting away from my surroundings and forcing myself into a new place is sometimes is good for me), do I take the boring and responsible "i might regret missing it later" route and stay home this summer and save more money, or do i go to LA in May to see SS501? LOL ^^;;;;;;;;; I bought tickets for the Korean Music Festival....
I'm not too worried about the investment on the tickets, I can resell them and they'd be the cheapest part of the trip anyway, but airfare and travel is of course the part I need to decide about reserving or not. I figure I can do the whole trip for around 1000, which isn't using all my travel fund a but... I'd rather stay longer than 2 nights, because I'd rather make a "trip" out of it rather than just going for what amounts to a tiny portion of a very long concert (though I'd enjoy the rest of it too of course, it's just not my #1 motivation for going :P). But staying would mean staying at a hostel (which I would probably have to do anyway if I went alone) but at the same time I am nervous about the idea of staying at a hostel in LA. I'm having a hard time convincing myself to go because I have all these not-great stereotypes in my head about LA and I'm not sure whate else is there that would interest me on a low budget. but... it's SS501! It's certainly not like I'm ever going to see them in Korea! Even if I ever went to Korea there are many reasons why I'd rather see them in Japan or the US as opposed to Korea :P (and I wouldn't schedule a Japan trip around them either, because Japan trip gets planned for Kanjani8 :P) I mean, it's expensive to go to LA but it's still way cheaper than going anywhere overseas.
(P.S. I HAVE 2 TICKETS, DOES ANYONE WANT TO GO WITH ME AND CONVINCE ME TO GO? ;D *points up*)
otherwise, where else do I go this summer, and will I regret not going to this? I CAN'T DECIDE~~ DDD:
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On the other hand I'm thinking of going back to University part time and I don't know how much that will cost... I don't think that should be too much of an issue since I'm only planning to take one course at a time now, and will only be starting in September if I go back, but it is something I need to think about this month! because my school's enrollment date is May 1st. I assume if I only take one course per term I'd probably be able to pay for it myself if my Dad decides I'm too old for him to pay for it. I've been out of school for a full year now, but I have 18 months to re-enroll at the U i was at, I think. But of the two Universities in town, the only courses I *really* want to take are only at the OTHER University, the one that I didn't get accepted into last time and probably still wouldn't accept me... and the schools will allow you to take transfer credits but I'm not sure if you can do it for part time... Part time has a lot of restrictions. So i dunno.
Anyway, I'm worried about it all but since it's Friday night, all I can do is plan to go see the guidance office at school on my next free weekday. I guess I shouldn't worry too much.
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At least I was a good girl tonight and went for a half hour walk when I was feeling "bored" (bored = tired and avoiding doing anything). Good for me! :P I need to do that more. Even though I come home and sit right back in front of the computer but whatever. Exercising once a day will have good effects. I've been going to dance class the past 2 thursdays, now that my other thursday workshops ended and I still have thursdays off... It's good for me and I will keep going but it's amazing how bad my memory is for such things. god. partially it's just n00bish sucking at remembering choreography 10 minutes after you learned it, but i think partially its my ADD-ish-ness. I'm assuming (hoping!) that eventually it'll improve with practice, because choreo memory is something I've always been terrible at and wanted to get better at ^^;;
